Try Try till you succeed?

How many times have you failed and your dad/teacher/friend/enemy came upto you and said "keep trying! one day you will get there." And how many times does it actually happen that you try.. On the personal front, i never had the patience to keep trying..

However, since the time i have been working here i have realized that nothing happens in one go- the coffee wont come out right, your code wont compile, testers are bound to give 1000 bugs atleast etc etc and so i hit back to the cubicle repeting the "try try .." chant and inspire myself to get the wok done.

But today at work i just realized (thanks to a team mate)
its simple to give up
its simpler not to try at all
but its the simplest just to delegate your work..

And boy it worked wonders. Thats why i love this industry- you always have someone to whom you can delegate.
Long live IT industry, to anyone who thinks we are going down well think again, we are here to stay.

(status back to busy)

Victim Of Need!!

dont have much to describe as to why i wrote this ... just hmmm it got penned down..

Victim Of Need:
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Look at me here
What is it that you see?
The luscious carved body
Or the battered soul within

You term me a social disease
And count me an outcast
But I am just trying
Trying to live and last

You make my pride bite dust
By calling me a parasite
But its only your lust
On which I have been feeding

You catch me contemplating
You feel I am lost
But I am just healing
From every nights ordeal

You think its my choice of pleasure
This torment of soul and body I treasure
But I am just a victim of need
The need to survive

I cant wait to start a new chapter
But the ink is dry, the lines disappear
Like words on sand, washed away,
By guilt from this sin filled river

\m/

Why me?

Yup its the same old question!And another article on this cliche of a topic. But no matter how much time i have wasted over this question i have never been able to come up with a satisfactory answer to reason with it. Only recently i realised that the answer to it is pretty simple.

It is me who decides why it has to be me.

After almost every situation which had me on my back to the wall, i would end up wih this question ringing in my head. Whether it would be staying up at night and staring at the wall, or having a friend call at night and ask to go to ashram road, or have someone call up at 2 AM and ask me to play master of puppets for her (this had been by far the wierdest request!), or any of those countless situations i can think of, instead of trying to think rationally , all i ever ended up was with a "WHY ME?" and then sit and speculate. Speculating, and not greed, i must say is the root of all evil.

But then couple of nights back while again echoing the question over another situation, i finally realised it had always be my decision to get into the situation. It was my decision to sniff the powder, my decision to take the fight, my decision to love someone etc etc. In short it had always be my actions who would put me in all those situations. Okay yaa maybe a few situations were not in my hand, but 95.6% (yes i calculated that number that night)of what i remember, it was always me jumping into things before reconsidering. Sometimes its great to do things for the thrill of it but then i guess we shouldnt end up asking the inevitable when things go bad.

Anyways my preaching here is done.And as i head back to the unresolved issue at my desk i just sit and ask one question"Why Me?"
Take care friends.